gone too soon

i thought michael jackson would live forever.

my fondest memory of michael jackson was how my cousins and i would fight over to play his video arcade game; moonwalker in genting. Each time the family make their way to genting for holidays, the four of us would fight to play and hurdle around the video arcade machine. I have no idea why we were so crazy over the game. I guess there was magic in those dance moves made as his special powers in the video game - the moonwalk, him spinning and then with that signature pose, his hand pointing in the air and he goes "Ow".

I grew up listening to his songs, especially the "Dangerous" album which i still have it and the CD is quite scratched. The scratches indicate how often the CD was played. It is really strange that this day would have come so fast. I mean i thought he would live forever like die at an old age but nope, he died at the age of 50 when he was planning a comeback. If i could go for concert, i just might. I remembered my uncle went for his concert in Singapore at national stadium and complained how small MJ was on stage because he sat really far. I thought to myself then, if i could, i would attend the concert as well. He was the first singer i knew when it comes to english songs before I started listening to more english songs. With his passing, i suppose there won't be anyone would enjoy a success as huge as or create as huge influence as he did.

I guess michael jackson now is living forever, in his music; in our hearts.

you know, with mj's passing, i realised only in death(not love), you would learn what forever means.

today's wedding that i've attended has confirmed what i thought to be - you'll always be the prettiest bride, even if you are ugly/not so attractive/plain jane on other normal days, you'll still be the prettiest bride on your wedding day. make sure you'll be good friends with your make-up artist because he/she would be responsible for making you beautiful on your wedding day.

objective reality

i heard something really interesting yesterday. 

it goes something like this: 

our objective reality is the sum of many subjective perspectives. 

安宁 - 孙燕姿

夜的宁静是时候好好反省
月的阴晴圆缺就像我的心
夜下着雨天在哭泣
不知道何时才放晴
我忽然非常想念你
你的背影让我失去了理性
你的放弃让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青
永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽

我努力的想哭泣却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的违心才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己已经不在乎你
原来分手也能如此的安宁

你的背影让我失去了理性
你的放弃让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青
永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽

我努力的想哭泣却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的违心才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己已经不在乎你
原来分手也能如此的安宁
原来分手也能如此的安宁


did I post this song before? can't remember. oh well, i like this song. thanks to zy. =)

familiarity

familiarity is always comforting 

you were the familiarity that i held on to;
knowing that you could provide the shelter that i need to survive
in this indifferent world; i leaned on you.
the familiarity that was always assuring and always accepting.
your ways and your words, i could predict you
because they were familiar and that, gave me comfort knowing that
this familiarity would make me feel important, make me feel loved.
i loved the familiarity;
you were the familiarity.

i really need to get my piano playing back on track and i really have to make time for it. 

me and my restless soul. 

prayers

i don't know how i'm feeling.

there's something strange about prayers. 

days when you pray hard for whatever you need, it doesn't come and you feel discouraged.

looking back for the last few days, i realised what i've prayed for have realized and now, i'm not sure why but this huge sense of lost. 

i'm so used to working alone.

 a new colleague might mean a different game play all together. =\ 

uninspired

i'm suffering the aftertaste of not so good theatre. oh my. you know how good plays inspire you after you watch them and the day after you watched them, you still live inspired. Yesterday's show has left me cold and wonder what did i just spend on. blah blah blacksheep. so i woke up so uninspired, no drive in life and spent 15 minutes wondering what i should wear. You know how there are days you really have NO idea what to wear like all the clothes feel so overused like you'll be thinking, "did I wear this just last week?".

"yes you did"

and then you seem to have exhaust all the different combination and permutation of your clothes.

I guess it's just today. I don't feel myself, like a little on the offside and uninspired.