the proposals

a）

甲小姐和他已经在一起有三年多。

他们感情非常稳定，一起养了一只狗也打算一起买房子。

周边的朋友都理所当然地认为他们一定会结婚。

他也这么认为。所以有一天，他向她求婚。

甲小姐望着他，默默地问自己，

“我能吗？我真的能嫁给他吗？”

那天，她提出分手。

b）

乙小姐和他在一起不到一年，

也是她第一位男友。

他们在一起非常开心，每个人都感觉得到。

可是周边的朋友也知道感情开始的时候，何尝不是甜蜜美好的。

有一天，他向她求婚。

毫无反顾地，她答应了他。

i wonder how anyone could take up the courage and risk to propose to anyone and for anyone being proposed to, to have the courage and risk to agree to the proposal.

edge of desire - john mayer

Young and full off running
tell me where is that taking me
just a great figure eight
or a tiny infinite

love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me
for all of my trying
we still end up dying
how can it be?

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me

so young and full off running
all the way to the edge of desire
steady my breathing
silently screaming
I have to have you now

wired and I'm tired
think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
baby this mattress will spin on it's axis
and find me on yours

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me

now or never

1) dear friend of mine is closing her shop.

2) another friend of mine reminded me that i wanted to hold my birthday party at her shop next year.

3) dear friend of mine is closing her shop TOMORROW rather than what was announced earlier.

life is spontaneous, ever-changing and unpredictable.

i remembered how i wanted to hold my birthday this year at her shop but i never got down to it. why? because i didn't really want to plan anything i supposed and financially, i didn't want to spend so i dropped the idea thinking i have next year to do so.

or so i thought.

she decided to close her shop and there goes my "want" of holding a birthday party at her shop.

what does it say?

life, doesn't wait for you.

sometimes, it's really about doing something at that very moment. even if it means to cost you, you should do it because the opportunity may just slip through your hand and you'll never have the chance to do it.

so, don't procrastinate my dear friends, do what you have to do today.

you don't have another day to make things right.

it's now...

or never.

do you have something that you wanted to work on today?

test

i must have meant something to you.

even words, cannot stand the test of time.

what will?

gravity - john mayer

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Oh gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like a one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me

(now how can that be?)

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
Oh... where the light is!

boho dreams

i think i'm exploding from this routine.

like i want out.

it could explain all these strange thoughts/weird ways.

but i have no idea what will being out lies for me.

so...

to start, i want to have my day job and a bohemian part-time job.

i'll figure something - i mean the bohemian part-time job part.

yes.

i wish i had more time at hand.

dreamer

forgive me, for i'm a dreamer at heart.

cause i feel there is more for you.

mondays at work is always like this - spent the time trying to start work, trying to not chat on msn but failed miserably and exploring new music to listen to.

so today i rediscovered john mayer and remember why i could listen to his "rooms for square" albums so many times and his current "battle studies" album is pretty good stuffs too.

good stuff for such a rainy, gloomy, a little melancholy weather day.

while exploring for new music, i found this guy and this song too - john garrison's "so close".

Nothing personal, nothing you said,

Nothing I found out, nothing I heard
And I see everything inside the room
And I don’t know, and further more, I don’t care
For anything outside
Cause tonight I feel so close to you
And I feel I’m part of you
And there’s nothing that exists outside the room
You can lock the doors and seal the windows too
Cause I feel at one with you

Something untold to you, something I hold
A subdued ecstasy, painted gold
And I know this is exactly what you would like to hear
It’s just not me
Cause tonight I feel too close to you
And I feel I’m losing you
And there’s so much that exists outside the room
You can break the doors and smash the windows through
Cause I feel there’s more for you

check out his new album, departures. he has other songs that are quite good too.

this sunday it's about sitting at cafe, talking about our dreams and plans and enjoying each other's company.

good times.

another work day tomorrow. sometimes i think i live a double life - weekdays, your typical office lady. weekends, me.

only weekends, i feel like myself.

presenting

lyrical moments

site meter

site meter is amazing.

looking at the stats, there was someone, whoever that may be, working in CAAS spent the whole day (almost) looking through my old blog and i suspect the person read my even older blog too (that blog should die).

gosh.

who?

disarray

tonight is the kind of night where i feel that to sleep is such a waste. i guess it has come to a point where time, seems never enough. Work takes up much of our lives and then there's not much time to work on other stuffs. So you take up more caffeine, hoping you can not fall asleep and use those waking moments to work on the other stuffs that you may be busy with in your life but on the cost of forsaking sleep but it could, do serious damage to your health.

your body needs rest.

you know that right?

but the reality of life is that. i guess the thing about me is that i have 10001 interests and a very easily distracted mind. i could be working on something for awhile and then the next moment, another so i'm not entirely focused. as i'm writing this, i supposed i would really need to be focused to do what i wanted to do - go overseas to study.

sometimes, it's so easy to get comfortable with life here. i mean your friends are here (if they don't choose to leave me), your family is here, much of your memories and whatabouts are here. It gets comfortable being just going about what you are doing, going about your routine and you have to constantly remind yourself not to get lost in this routine. yes, even in this routine i suppose we can get lost too.

lost in what you wanted to achieve at the first place, lost in being comfortable when you don't get closer to it.

then what happens?

i'm still here for the next 20 years.

it's not a bad thing but that's not what i want.

focus em focus.

i'm sorry friends, but one day, i'll abandon you for my greener pastures.

would you like to join me when that day comes along?

(i hope it does comes along..)

i think i need to start writing and scribbling my thoughts down and run more.

it should keep me sane. sometimes, i'm amazed by how i drive myself crazy and which is why, even i, am scare of what i think i am capable of.

time off

the irony of it is that she found out that she has alot of time off but she also has ALOT of work to do. so she can't exactly take time off because doing so means she can't clear her work. Deadlines looming around the corner but i guess as always, she only strive until the last minute and that's when she'll start ranting again.

epiphany

the afternoon epiphany that she would do nothing to jeopardize what she has.