you stood there and you wondered why - why you allowed yourself to feel this way - where you allowed your heart to be affected by someone else 和他／她的一举一动。

人是犯贱的，就如你所说。

后来才发现，潇洒的你还是依然会为她着迷。

(500) days of Summer

why i like (500) days of summer?

it's realistic and it's not a love story. it shows you the reality of relationships - how it is always happy at the beginning. jokes that you two share, turn cold at the end. after the relationship, you replay all these images in your mind trying to find out at what point did the relationship went wrong but all you think of, are the good memories and you still can't find the reason why.

on top of that, i like how the movie is played out in a non-linear fashion, like our memories when you think about the relationship that ended and those black and white sequences and of course, zooey deschanel.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom: Knew what?

Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

running partner needed

i think it's been sometime since i spent such late morning time in my room, listening to music and chilling out.

it's good.

i like it.

such me time.

anyway, race was horrendous this year but whatever. i'm taking it as training for 42km. it has always been. i think every year, all the last 2 years (including today), it's the only time you can hear me spewing vulgarities from the start till the end because you have NO idea why you pay for yourself to do this when you could be sleeping soundly.

i have no idea either.

it's the sense of achievement when you run past the finish mark that keeps me going, knowing that if i can finish such mundane running, i can do anything.

that's why i started doing such races.

now, i really need to step up running to train for 42km.

on another note, i need a consistent running partner.

my spontaneity

i cancelled my piano lesson on the account that i wanted to stay in the office to do work so that i can go home earlier to run and gym but my spontaneity got the better of me.

i went shopping instead and spent 56 dollars in a night out like this.

how do i start my day with morning runs?

i have to be more disciplined than this.

time for rest. i'm glad today went well. tomorrow is another battle. for now, let my mind wander away with my new book that i bought, "SUM: forty tales from the afterlives" by David Eagleman. Beware, i'm reading it in Chinese because the chinese edition has an abstractly pretty book cover. (i'm superficial)

be my muse

人与人之间的关系是微妙的。

在我们的一生中，有些人就是只能当你一辈子的朋友。有些就是只能当你的情人。感情结束后，你走你的阳光道，我走我的独木桥。有些呢，本来是朋友，后来变成情人。但分手后，就不能挽回昔日的友情。而有些，分手后做朋友比做情人更好的朋友。

那么，你和我的关系又是怎样的？

roadtrip #1

in summary:

7 ladies - 3 malaysians, 4 singaporeans.

kota tinggi, johor bahru and some beach near desaru.

lots of screaming in the car and singing to mayday's songs.

aggressive driving to survive on the foreign road and still came back in one piece. (thank God!)

cheap and pretty good ktv.

good food and company.

roadtrip #1 was a success.

more road trips to come.

on another note: i desperately need to clear my room, like seriously. i need to make this space, more liveable, breathier, comfy-ier. any volunteers to help me clear my mess and memories?

those were the days

i have a presentation on tuesday.

work aside - i'm listening to at17 again and their songs never fail to remind me of my days in california especially <青春> because i used to listen to the song and cycle to school.

(I believe i must have blog a similar content.)

it's been 3 years.

三年前的我，这个时候，就在那里。

i guess i'll never save enough to go back to US.

on another note, i think i should quit twitter for awhile.

i think i tweet too much.

so what were you expecting?